Siesta Scripture - December 1 through December 15

I have found it difficult to sit down and blog very much over the past month or so about anything other than "documenting" an event. I know it's because there is a lot going on right now...we're currently preparing for the birth of our first child, Justin is starting to interview for a post-graduate job and we're anticipating a move back to Texas after his graduation. And all this is supposed to happen in the next 4 or 5 months!

Blogging has become a way for me to sort my thoughts and in a way, to think more deeply about things, however, I'm not really using it for that right now. I'm almost as bad at returning phone calls and I haven't been disciplined about having intentional conversations with people here. All this adds up to what I would call a "lack of deep thinking" on my part and probably a lot of missed opportunities. I think most new and expectant mothers would probably identify with this feeling, but it's not something that I want to become who I am.

I know that a lot of things change when you have a baby. I am already starting to experience some of those changes and I expect that even more dramatic changes are coming soon. These are exciting to me (and some of them are scary) but I don't want them to hinder my relationships- with others and especially with Jesus. I'm praying these things for 2012.

All that to say, I very much enjoyed memorizing scriptures over 2011. I am glad that I committed to putting them on the blog- one, so I would have all of them in one place and two, so I would be accountable to actually doing it. Reflecting into words what God has taught me through this "goal" or "exercise" has been most of the deep thinking that I've done at all recently. The OCD part of me wants to memorize two more for January 2012 since I didn't begin Beth Moore's challenge until February 1st last year. However, I am realizing that as I approach my due date, I need to simplify some things. I also feel as if I should recognize scriptural truths that I have previously learned instead of continuing to pile more information into my brain without allowing it to process. I want these truths to come to my mind when I feel angry, distressed or sad. I want them to be a part of my life...not just something I memorized with no application.

So the last scripture that I memorized for 2011 was Jeremiah 31:3:
"I have loved you with an everlasting love; therefore I have continued my faithfulness to you."

It is always indescribably amazing to me that God loves us, even in our current condition. He didn't require us to clean up and make ourselves worthy to be his bride, otherwise, He would still be waiting on us.